Olympic Village by Night - Bungalows

28. May 2006 | Flickr, Munich, Techie | 1 Comment »
Olympic Village by Night - Bungalows

Olympic Village by Night - Bungalows, originally uploaded by firebirdy.
The bungalows of the Olympic Village by night - I just love the colours


This is a photo taken from the roof of my building tonight. Colm gave me his old camera, when he got a new one, and I’ve been having fun experimenting with it.

I’m particularly fond of night photography, but have found it hard to do well. For now, I’ve stuck with letting the camera choose the aperture & shutter speed, and just tried to give it the best chance possible!

Once I figured out that it was the movement involved in pressing the shutter release that was my biggest enemy, I learnt to use a 2-second delay. It’s as simple as getting the camera steady (leaning on the wall, in this case, strap securely ’round my neck!), pressing the button, and holding it still until the photo is taken. There’s always a bit of movement when you press the button, but the 2-second delay should more than allow you time to get steady again.

I’ve also revived my flickr account - so you can see the rest of my photos there - including some super-cool ones of the Olympic Stadium by night. It really is a very funky structure!

Dublin 101 at FeatherCast

28. May 2006 | General, Techie, Travel | 0 Comments »

Yesterday, David Reid of the ASF and FeatherCast interviewed me about Dublin, in the run up to ApacheCon Europe 2006.

The podcast is now available, at FeatherCast.org. David has edited it marvellously, so that I only say ‘emm’ about 325 times, and ‘literally’ about half that :)

I think sound a bit like the girl who announces the stops on the Aircoach, but I’m hoping that’s not terminal!

It’s less than a month now til the conference, and I’m really looking forward to meeting the Apache crowd there - so if you’re heading to Dublin, have a listen, for all the tips & tricks you’ll need :)

Scarves and Towels

26. May 2006 | Munich, Personal | 1 Comment »

Yesterday was Christi Himmelfahrt, which is a bank holiday here, so it was a relatively quiet day. I spoke to home, and had a bit of trouble explaining to my mum what holiday it was :) You see, I can never say the right word when I want to, when it comes to the Anunciation, the Assumption and the Ascension. Two of them have to do with the Blessed Virgin Mary… Two of them have to do with holy folk going to Heaven… And two of them use fairly normal words, in a not-entirely-odd way. If you give me one of the words, I can tell you what it refers to - but damned if I can get the right word when I want to use it myself :)

It was also Towel Day. I had a boring ol’ light blue towel with me, but really the one to look out for was Steve, owner of the world’s coolest towel :) I won though, because he left his towel in work at the end of the day :D

In any case, whatever day it was, I went into town to meet Bari & Olivier. Poor Bari’s train was mega-delayed, but she got there in good time anyway, and we headed to Sausalito’s, where I spent €4.50 (it was happy hour) on the most alcoholic Long Island Iced Tea I’ve ever encountered. I know the alternate name for it is “the five whites”, but you are supposed to leave some space for the Coke y’know! Dinner was some delicious slightly-spicy chicken strips (billed as chicken nuggets - they weren’t), and I finished off with a virgin strawberry margarita - essentially, strawberries, ice, sugar, lime juice & lemon juice, all blended up. Yum-my! I’m not sure if I’d go to Sausalito’s again - the food was excellent, the price was right, but the LIIT was just too alcoholic for me. Ah, I’ll probably go :) The strawberry juice was just too good to pass up :)

We headed back towards Studentenstadt then, for the StuStaCulum, passing a whole load of the most oddly-dressed boys heading towards Ludwigskirche, all wearing funny hats, slightly lederhosen-like trousers, shirts & braces. Some of them even had swish ceremonial sword-resembling-devices…

Mini Moustache were the “French disco” band we wanted to see - they were good fun, played up all the French stereotypes, and we generally had a laugh. Their set was a bit weird - it was still bright when they kicked off, and everyone was standing around in a semi-circle, as if they were at some very formal concert, behind an imaginary velvet rope… Bari, Olivier & I danced up the front, with a bunch of five- to eight-year-olds, and just had fun :)

Afterwards, we headed back to Bari’s place to get some water (Olivier had also had the LIIT!), and Bari gave me the coolest scarf EVER :) It’s red, and slightly-silky, and has Hagar (the Horrible?) on it, and it says I LOVE BARI :) How cool is that? Very. Very, very Bari :) (To clarify - Bari isn’t some sort of crazy egomaniac… She’s just regular crazy. The scarf comes from the football shop in an Italian town of the same name.)

FLOSSPOLS, Sexism, and Why Meritocracy Really Isn’t

24. May 2006 | Personal, Techie | 1 Comment »

This is my take on the “why are women so underrepresented in technology in general, and open source in particular” debate, inspired by several things that have come up lately - primarily the publication of the FLOSSPOLS report of findings & recommendations, a thread on the women@apache mailing list, and a seemingly innocent comment on my Frustrations! post…

A brief technical bio: I’m a woman who only really got interested in computers late in my school career, because they were something I felt I was good with. I had computers around earlier than that, but frankly, I played the games I was given - I wasn’t programming in BASIC, or ‘peek’ing and ‘poke’ing to make my screen do funny things. I’ve worked in both closed-source (in Microsoft), and open-source (httpd-docs/ASF) environments. I’m a fairly active member of several allied organisations - amongst them SAGE-IE, ILUG and Linuxchix. I’m also studying Computer Science at university, as part of a cross-discipline degree (my other subjects are Linguistics & German).

First off, sexism: my experience has been that, with the exception of one of the organisations mentioned above, the majority of the people I interact with on a technical basis are not overtly sexist. Sure, you get morons who think that because I’m a geek, I clearly can’t get a boyfriend, and they’re only too willing to step up to the plate. Or worse, they presume that even though I have a boyfriend, and am clearly unavailable, I’m such a minority that really, they have some kind of bizarre right to harass me. But thankfully, they’re a minority.

In two of the groups I’m a member of - one male dominated, one female dominated, sexist behaviour, where it does occur, is absolutely not tolerated. I can’t think of any occasion where I’ve seen truly sexist behaviour in either of those groups, but I think that’s because it’s so clear that it won’t be tolerated. In the other group - also male dominated - sexism is, at best, ignored. This, frankly, is only minutely better than encouraging it, and thus it flourishes. This practice also leaves the group with a fairly sexist ‘feel’, even when there’s no active sexism ‘right now’.

A much bigger problem, however, is subconscious or covert sexism. This is a bigger problem because it’s more insidious, and less likely to be noticed by others - oftentimes, even those who are being sexist don’t notice it, or would describe their behaviour as something other than sexist. The FLOSSPOLS report shows again and again that women see and experience sexism that men just don’t believe is there. And certainly, it’s possible that the motivations of those perpetuating these problems are entirely innocent - but the net result is an environment that is hostile to women.

The idea of meritocracy comes in here. On the surface, it’s a completely fair, non-sexist, open concept. Anyone can get in, anyone can progress, as long as they’re good enough.

That’s very, very rarely true. Generally, at best, a meritocracy turns very quickly into a merit-and-confidence/pushiness-ocracy. Good work doesn’t win you influence - good work that’s pushed in others’ faces, or at the very least, good work of which others are regularly reminded - wins you influence. And that’s where women fall down. Women are every single bit as capable of good technical work as men. Sure, there are fewer women who have developed and practised their technical skills - but even that doesn’t account for the disparity that’s apparent in the open source world.

There’s no real way of excising the need for confidence - at the end of the day, a contribution has to be made public somehow for it ever to become part of an open source project. But this is definitely a bar that can be lowered, without lowering the standards of merit required by anyone. A meritocracy should be just that - influence earned by merit, decisions made by those who show merit, governance by quality, not confidence.

The final problem with meritocracy is that even after all the noises of “it’s all about the quality of contributions”, women very often aren’t judged on the same basis as men. This is one of the few areas that FLOSSPOLS have looked at where both men and women perceive there to be a problem. People listen or pay attention to women, or don’t, based on the fact that they’re female - not based on the merit or otherwise of their contributions. Call it what you want, that’s not meritocracy.

I think the FLOSSPOLS report is really well worth reading in its entirety, but my notes follow.

Women aren’t passively avoiding open source - they’re actively excluded from it, even if the actions aren’t intended to exclude women. Most open source projects have a “way” - there’s “the Debian way”, “the Apache way”, “the FSF way”, to name but a few. Some of these are formalised, some reside in the minds of the current members of any given community. Most of these “ways” set code above all - which is all very well, but results in software that frankly, is considerably less useful than it could be. It also indirectly disadvantages women, who typically tend to be involved in areas such as documentation. Note that this is often because documentation projects are less sexist - because they have more women anyway! - not because the women choose to document because they’re not capable of coding.

These “ways” also tend to value independent work and discovery - which is all very well, but women typically come to computers later in their careers, and are thus at a disadvantage from the start. Expecting them to catch up on their own, and yet regarding the playing field as level, is rather less than realistic. Fused Silicon and Free Software describes this in a little more detail. This another big problem with the practice (as opposed to the concept) of meritocracy - it’s often not about how good you are, it’s about how well you know the project that’s sitting in front of you. Which, of course, requires either the confidence to ask hundreds of questions, until you get the answers you need, or the perseverance to just keep poking at it - the latter of which is hard to maintain in a hostile environment.

Open source communities often see themselves as ‘apart’ from the rest of society - but they lump women in with ’society’. Women are either assumed to be male (online), or the subject of intense scrutiny and attention (online & offline), both of which can be horrifically uncomfortable situations to be in. Interestingly, it’s thought that a high proportion of contributors to open source software are on the autistic spectrum - which itself has a disproportionately high number of males.

Aggressive behaviour, while less common amongst those “higher up” in any given community, is nonetheless relatively common in the open source community. This can result in women “failing” before they start, because of lack of knowledge of the true hierarchy, and lack of confidence in their technical abilities.

Women often have difficulties integrating into open source communities because they spend less time on this type of work. This is often not because of lack of interest, but simply because of increased time spent on other “responsibilities”. Men counter this with “that’s just social conditioning” - but neglect to mention that social conditioning is a powerful motivator, in both directions. Again interesting is the note that whilst consumer usage of technology is widening (and thus, more women are likely to be getting early access to technology), women’s involvement in technology in general - both commercial and academic - is decreasing. This is especially pronounced in open source software.

The most interesting recommendation I saw was to sponsor exchange programs or joint projects with parts of the world where coding is not a “male” activity. I think this could be useful for both men and women. Hell, if I could find somewhere where coding was an inherently female activity, I’d be most interested in seeing how some of the men I know would cope!

However, the most useful recommendation I saw was to encourage those in leadership positions to recognise that people are being actively put off, not just failing to participate - and that this is a problem for open source work - now and in the future.

Home for a Busy Bee Weekend

23. May 2006 | General, Personal, Travel | 1 Comment »

So, I promised some more upbeat blogging, and here it comes :)

It’s been rather a while since I blogged, but not much happened on the German side - the only thing of any real note was that I had a trial thing in the language lab, and it went really well - so I have a meeting tomorrow morning to sort out when I’ll be working there and so on.

Colm went off to San Francisco for a few days to be a poster-boy for Sun’s Niagaras at JavaOne. He had a ball, and came home with something he’s been wanting for rather a long time - a digital SLR camera (a Canon 350D, to be precise, with two lenses, a normal one and a zoom one both zoom ones, to be imprecise :)) (See Update below)

That made finding him a birthday present pretty easy - and in the process, I found a new electronics shop, which was kinda cool :) I wasn’t sure he’d like the camera bag I got him - but I guess I know him better than I trust myself to, because he thought it was brilliant :) (It’s a Crumpler bag, but I’m not gonna link to it, because their website is just so full of Flash crap :()

I managed to bring home close to 35kg of stuff - including a 5l baby-keg of beer for Eoin’s birthday :) Clearing this place out at the end of my time here will be hellish - but should hopefully be do-able.

The first exciting piece of news when I got home was that dad’s been made an Assistant Commissioner of the St John Ambulance Brigade of Ireland :) It’s not actually unexpected - he told me the last time I was home that he’d gotten a phone call - but it now seems to be official, and publically known :)

It was lovely to be home - mum had cooked my favourite dinner and dessert, and I was so happy to see everyone.

The order and days have just blurred into each other a little at this stage, but I got several things achieved. For one, I met the supervisor for my FYP - she’s absolutely lovely, and the project looks fun, challenging, but eminently do-able.

I also upgraded a few WordPress installs, with a different anti-spam plugin for each. NYC got the simplest - you now have to add two single-digit numbers, correctly, in order to be allowed post a comment. Digital Rights Ireland needed something a little less obtrusive, so I left it using Akismet, which comes installed by default, but requires a WordPress API key to activate. Frankly, I don’t like it, and I anticipate getting rid of it in the next few days. It does the job, but it will auto-delete stuff after 15 days, and it doesn’t give me any kind of indication of how sure it is that the stuff in its queue is spam. Frankly, I could have achieved the same basic effect by leaving WordPress as I had it (set to moderate all comments), and procmailing the emails I got to /dev/null.

This blog got the best one of all. It’s called Spam Karma 2, and it’s just spiffy. It gives the spam it catches a score, ala SpamAssassin, highlights them in different shades depending on how sure it is that they are spam, lets me weight the scores as I choose (although I’ve stuck with the defaults, and they seem to work just fine), puts red borders around mails it wants me to moderate (because the score is too high to be spam, but too low to be ham), and mails me once a day to tell me how many spams it’s caught (also configurable :)). At the moment, it will also use a very simple captcha as one of its tests, when the comment is being posted, but I’m contemplating turning that off, because I think my spam is probably clearly enough delineated from my ham, and I’d rather not pester the few real commenters I have! Thoughts, anyone? :)

Colm and I went to two concerts - we’d only really planned to go to the first one - the wonderful fiddle-player Kevin Burke, with Ged Foley on guitar. When we went to pick up the tickets though, we saw that there was one the next night with Liz Carroll and John Doyle (on the same instruments). While both concerts were hugely enjoyable, John Doyle was simply incredible. His guitar-playing was just out of this world - the only person I could think to compare him to was Bela Fleck, who we heard in New York last summer. It was altogether wow.

We also went geocaching - we looked for three caches, and unfortunately found only one :( But the hunting was fun, and the locations were nice places to go to anyway :)

Now however, it’s late, and I’ve forgotten all the other things I wanted to blog, so I think it’s time to sleep :) Good night all :)

(Oh, yes - the internet is working in my apartment again. Please make offerings to the Supreme Being of your choice, in thanks for this, and in the hopes that it may continue to work!)

Update: I am reliably informed that both the lenses for Colm’s new camera are zoom lenses. So let me restate. One of them is big, and long, and extendible, and zooooooomy. The other looks like a perfectly civilised camera lens :)

Frustration!

23. May 2006 | Personal, Rant, Techie | 4 Comments »

It’s been a great weekend, but I’ve just found out something horrifically frustrating :(

Expect more blogging on the weekend when I get to Germany (just in the airport now), but I want to get the frustration out of my system first :)

My Google Summer of Code application looks highly likely to be rejected. That on its own isn’t a big problem. But there are comments on it asking for elaboration/explanation of some stuff, that I never saw. I looked for comments previously (and after the dates that these were posted), but didn’t see any - and I didn’t get any kind of email or other notification. I don’t know if they were there before and just hidden, or not there at all - like I said, I looked for comments, and couldn’t find any, but I can’t swear to it that they weren’t there either.

Either way, I didn’t respond to them, and it now seems pretty unlikely I’ll be accepted for the program, without the extra information. That really, really bugs me - I might not have been accepted if I had responded to them, but I’d at least have had a chance. And I’ll likely still do the project - but it would have been really nice to have gotten paid for it, and to have gotten money for the ASF by doing it. What’s more, I had deliberately included several pieces of contact information in my proposal, precisely in case someone wanted clarifications…

Bugger anyway.

Update: At 07:25UTC today, I got an email from the Google Summer of Code saying my application had been accepted. Happy days, until 07:33UTC, when they sent out the email apologising for the previous email, and confirming that I had been rejected. This after initially saying everyone would have an answer by 22nd May, and then updating that to 23rd May. Really, really poor show guys. If you need three days to finalise things and get the notifications right, take it. Hell, if you need a week, take it. But be upfront, set realistic expectations, and above all, don’t do double-takes like that.

Hints

9. May 2006 | Personal, Rant | 0 Comments »

I’ve had a few of these collected for a while - so here you go…


Hint: If your microwave has a grill function, and you wish to use this to toast a bread roll - make sure that the dial is set to ‘grill’, and not ‘high’, before putting in the bread roll on the metal grill platform.

Failure to do this will result in: bread roll failing to toast, smells of smoke.


Hint: If you’re teaching in a classroom with a whiteboard that can be moved up or down, and it always drifts up to the top of its runners as soon as you let go of it - push it up to the top as soon as you’ve finished writing, and before you start speaking.

Failure to do this will result in: many minutes of students’ attention lost, as they watch the whiteboard slowly make its way upwards behind you.


Hint: If your microwave is emitting smoky smells because of a previously diagnosed user error, and there is no immediate danger - take the batteries out of the smoke detector that lives on the shelf above the microwave, before you open the microwave door.

Failure to do this will result in: shrill, piercing complaints from the smoke detector, juggling of burnt items, oven-glove and smoke detector, general bother.


Hint: If you are a linguist - look up the term ‘valency’ in your favourite dictionary. Now go look it up in your favourite general reference book. If you still don’t know what it means in terms of chemistry, stop right now, and go find a chemistry lecturer. Hell, email me if you like. Do not continue until you know what it means. Commit this to memory. Never again refer to it as being ’something scientific’. If you really must, you may pretend that it has absolutely no meaning outside of linguistics.

Failure to do this will result in: frustrated students (who’ve probably studied chemistry much more recently than you have).

Happy Europe Day!

9. May 2006 | General, Munich, Personal | 0 Comments »

Ok, so it’s the end of the day - but I’ve had a fantastic one :)

I had a conversation (super-brief) with Mark Shuttleworth… I’m starstruck!

I got Val Henson invited to Limerick, where I may finally be able to meet her

I had Marshmallow Fluff

I got a job in the Multimedia Language Lab in the LMU, helping out folks learning English

I talked to home - always nice

What can I say? It’s been a great day, and here’s to tomorrow :)

The Mooncup

7. May 2006 | Personal | 6 Comments »

Ever since a thread on one of the LinuxChix mailing-lists, I’ve been vaguely contemplating trying out a menstrual cup. The inital cost put me off a little, but looking at how much I spend on tampons and pads every single month, it didn’t take long for me to decide that it was probably worth a try.

Of course, I only ever remembered a day or two before my period that I was considering trying it out - and at that stage, I generally wasn’t interested in ordering one, only to have it arrive just as my period was finished! So finally, last month, I remembered in good time, and started looking around.

The three main options I was aware of at the time were The Keeper, The DivaCup and Mooncup. I’ve since become aware of a Finnish company also making menstrual cups, under the name Lunette.

I decided against The Keeper purely because it’s made of rubber. I don’t know if I have a sensitivity to rubber - but I seem to have developed sensitivities to some products over the last year that I was always fine with before, and I sure didn’t want to find out the hard way! It occurred to me that disposable menstrual cups had a lot of the disadvantages of tampons, and then some, so I stayed away from them too.

Having read the website, testimonials, blog posts, and emails from Chix, I eventually decided that really, the only remotely substantial difference between the DivaCup and the Mooncup was the packaging it came in. The DivaCup seems to come in pretty packaging (yes, I’m a sucker for that), where the Mooncup comes in a little cotton bag. However, it really didn’t make much difference to me. In the end, I went with the Mooncup, because it was UK-based (and therefore physically closer), and the exchange rate seemed to mean it would be cheaper (in the end, it cost me 27.89EUR).

It arrived about a week later, posted in the manila envelope as promised on their website - even better, it went straight in to my mailbox :) (Almost everything bigger than a postcard is either junky trash advertising, or ends up getting stuck at the post office. And worse, when something is stuck at the post office, you can’t collect it that evening - you have to wait until the next day. Bugger that!) The only sign of what the contents were, was the return address - and I suspect if people are checking your mail that closely, they’re probably checking inside it too, so someone’s gonna find out. I say, “who cares?” - yes guys, women menstruate.

Mooncup

Included in the envelope was a fairly hefty “manual” for using the Mooncup (hefty because it’s printed in a ridiculous number of languages - it’s actually a fairly simple guide to how to use it), a glossy pamphlet about the Mooncup, an advertising sticker, and a small, cotton bag, containing the Mooncup itself. Having read the contents of the manual, and still having a couple of days before my period, I decided to try it out.

The first brownie points are for sterilisability :) Just drop the Mooncup into a pot of boiling water, and boil for five minutes. Do try not to let the pot boil dry! It can also be sterilised in any ‘normal’ steriliser - Milton, or a steam steriliser. I was well impressed with the ease of insertion - all you have to do is follow the instructions, and it Just Works. Fold, fold and insert.

I was convinced initially that I’d never be able to remove it without spilling the contents everywhere - but again, you just follow the instructions - pull it down, then slightly to the back to get the front bit out, and yay! It actually stays upright fairly naturally anyway, letting you ’spill’ the contents wherever is most appropriate :) The other super-handy thing about the Mooncup is that you can quite comfortably wear it before your period - so you don’t get caught out when it actually starts.

I have fairly heavy periods, and I found that even on my heavier days, when I’d easily be changing (super) tampons every couple of hours, I could quite comfortably get away with only emptying the Mooncup after about six hours. Also unlike tampons, I found there were almost no leaks - and those that were, I’m relatively confident were down to me not putting it in quite right.

I’ve seen a few mentions of bloody fingers online, but I found it wasn’t any different to using a tampon - yes, I got a little bit of blood on my fingers, but not much. The other common issue is the ‘tail’ - all the companies suggest that you trim it, so that there’s just enough outside the vagina to get a grip on, to remove it. I found I could feel the cup before I did this, and it was slightly uncomfortable - I’ve had no further problems since then though.

The makers of the Mooncup do get two Darwin points though - one for pointing out that you can’t have sex whilst wearing the Mooncup (I understand that this may not be obvious if you’ve never seen/worn one. Trust me, once you do, it will become blindingly so), and the second for advising that you refrain from trimming the ‘tail’ of the Mooncup whilst it’s inside you… What can I say!? :)

Overall, I’m really delighted with my Mooncup - it’s handy, easy, and so much cheaper & less wasteful in the long run. I’m definitely converted, and I’d highly recommend it to anyone.

Verbal [...] Complexes

5. May 2006 | Munich, Personal, Techie | 1 Comment »

Since I started studying linguistics in German, I’ve come to understand the concept of the “verbal complex”. Only too well. Boy, can it be complex.

I’ve just read a sentence which had a five word verbal complex. To highlight how complicated this is, I can’t actually come up with one that’s more than three words in English, although I’m pretty sure if I were more awake, I could come up with a four word one. (*wakes up, finds a four word verbal complex*)

“She should not have been being so rude.”

The underlined words are the verbal complex. Notice how there’s a word in the middle, not, which isn’t part of the verbal complex. This is where the sentence I’ve just read broke my poor little brain.

I have to give you some more background here too. The sentence I have just read is not one of the evil examples used by linguists to prove a point. It’s an apparently innocent sentence, in the middle of an apparently normal paragraph of apparently perfectly reasonable prose.

But it has a five-word verbal complex, with the first two words being seperated from the last three by FORTY THREE other words. 43. I counted. Twice. Forty three words stand between reading the first part of the verbal complex, and getting to the end of the verbal complex, so that you can figure out what verb was meant all along. My poor little English-speaking brain can’t cope with that.

There are even two other single-word verbs in those forty three words, in subordinate clauses. So you find a verb, go “Aha!”, and then realise it’s not the verb you wanted after all. Twice. By the time you find the end of the sentence, you’ve gotten most of the content, but you’ve entirely missed what the verb was. And you try reading a few sentences without the verbs. They really don’t make much sense, in general. Certainly not when the verb itself is five words long.

I’m going to go away now, and cry.